After Dawn

I had just finished praying my nafl. when i heard the squeaky sound from the door. She came to wake me up for subhi.She switched on the light and walked out of the room. I sat there on the mat supplicating intensely with tears rolling down i felt it deep within this time. After praying subhi i walked up straight to her room ; she was still on her mat reciting the Quran.So i walked out gently without making any noise or disturbing ;on my way out i met Dad so i knelt down to greet him as it is a part of my tradition ,he replied me with a huge grin and prayed for me.
I kept on tossing and rolling on the bed till she opened the door. she sat down next to me after i greeted her . I was expecting her to talk to me about what happened yesterday but instead all she said was "its going to be alright God is in command".Those were the exact words that helped me through the following two weeks. I clung to my faith each day waiting desperately for a sign. I had so many options but i was still yet to decide on the right choice. I mean this is my future we are talking about!I am tired of exploring . I have spent the past two years exploring i cant waste another year exploring. I cant be the same wishy washy indecisive. This was my last chance and i didn't want to make a decision i would live to regret.Then it finally hit me.... i didn't actually ask for a sign i asked God to make it work if it was the best for me. So i did what i had to do i finally decided to go with their advice; i decided to make a choice. Yes! I finally Made that choice.And i would like to believe that it turned out to be the best choice i had made in a long time. You'll get to know what that choice was in the next post ;)