As she walked into the room; i quickly shut my eyes and pretended to be asleep on my tear soaked pillow. She turned off the television because i left it on the style network channel. As i heard her footsteps closer my heart skipped a little and i could feel my eyes twitching. Thank God she didn't bother switching on the light she rubbed her soft palms through my hair then she walked out of the room. But i refused to open my eyes somehow i felt more comfortable with my eyes shut tightly together. But i could hear the little voice up there echoing "No I wouldn't remain a failure" turning a blind eye to the tears.
I stood up out of annoyance and walked straight to the toilet to rinse my swollen eyes. I looked at my reflection in the mirror and felt more sorry for myself. If only they knew what i was going through. His loud voice kept ringing in my ears. He has obviously given up on me. I wouldn't blame them they have tried their best and yet i keep failing them.There i was still staring into the image in the mirror while thinking deeply. I asked myself for the millionth time why mine had to be so different and complicated. Everyone seems to be going through life smoothly without much trials; then i snapped myself out of the thought. I tried to put my life trials into a positive perspective. I said to myself others are looking for opportunities like mine but they don't have the means and here i am with the perfect opportunity and yet i am not trying hard enough.Just when i was about to step out of the toilet i changed my mind. I decided to perform ablution and pray a Nafl prayer for Allah's guidance.
